Tuesday, 19 May 2015

The indecision around publishing this post is quite ironic really.



Now I am sure many of you can relate to the indecisiveness of what to order at a restaurant, or what film to watch. I get this too, you are not alone, however if I think ‘Ooh I might watch a film tonight’ I end up being so indecisive that I spend more time choosing something to watch and then end up not watching any.  

Indecision is the absolute bane of my life. It makes it pretty much impossible to get a definite answer for anything and I am almost 100% certain it disrupts everyone else as well. Often, my indecisiveness causes me to spend money on things I don’t need, like lipsticks (I have confessed, I am an addict). I will see a new collection, I will like a few lipsticks from it but I won’t be able to pick just one, nooo no no, I need all three (a-la MAC’s Wash and Dry collection).

Or I can’t choose between a starter and dessert so I just get both and then instantly regret every food choice I made. I end up spending forever to decide to do something, and if I do actually make a decision, I’ll pretty much regret it straight away and wonder ‘what if…’ or ‘I should have picked x, y or z’.

I weigh up the pros and cons of everything but then still don’t reach a decision. I ask for peoples’ advice on decisions about 62382 times before choosing one. I tried to result to flipping a coin to make my decision, but would always pick the other option. It’s like I am trying to be at war with myself. My mind’s telling me no, but my body, my body’s telling me yes – name that tune, but literally, that is my life.

Indecision is a decision is the first thing that comes up when I type ‘indecision is’ into Google. Yes, it is a decision I guess, but a very unconscious decision, if that makes sense. My decision or the result of the decision is not to be indecisive; it is just a flaw in my brain I guess.

I think the only positive to being so indecisive is the fact that I rationalise everything, but this hinders me also. It’s like everything has to have an equal amount of positives and negatives. It is so aggravating being so indecisive.

I guess my indecisiveness sort of stems from the fact that I over-think everything, they must be linked somehow, and it would make quite a bit of sense. I don’t really know what the point of this post is but if anyone reads it and happens to have any tips on how to be less indecisive (if that is even possible) I would really appreciate it.

Philippa x
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